Thinking of you Sweet Ashton  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom (friend to Aunt Kristi connected by Sweet Angels )

Kristi,  I have had you and your family on my mind a lot lately.  I know Ashton's first birthday is coming up and I know how "hard" this must be for you and your family.

Know that I am continue to pray for you and your Mom, and your family.

Forever you hold a piece of my heart ~ connected by our pecious angels

I created this little graphic for Ashton ~ knowing his family misses him so terribly much ~

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My Forever Angel  / Aunt Kristi
Dear Angel, Today I went to your Nanny's and again we watched the Montage Amber had made for you. Bodie was there and she had never seen it. Oh the heartbreak in the eyes of her and Emily. I know you saw every tear that fell from their little eyes, down their faces and off their chins.  They miss you so much. I told Bodie that she would see you again and be with you one day in Heaven. She cried and said "I know but it will be to long".  Like the rest of us, she does not understand why your life ended so soon. I told her that it was okay, you would never forget her and I know she will never forget you. Just watch over them both and give them special angel hugs and kisses every day. I love you and miss you. You are always in my thoughts, My Forever Angel. Close

Ashton's Montage  / Gail Poplin (family friend )
Today I finally had the chance to watch the video Amber created for you. It was a birthday gift to me from your Aunt Kristi. It is truly beautiful! While it brought many tears, it also made me smile. I could see all the love everyone had for you in all the pictures, even the ones of you and Uncle Donnie sleeping. SIDS robs everyone of so much. Hopefully one day they will find a cause and a cure so that all the precious babies like you can stay with those that love and miss them. Thank you so much for this special gift Kristi. I will treasure it always. Also, to Amber, you have created a beautiful memorial. I know you put all the love you have for Ashton into its creation and it shows.       Love, Gail Close

My Forever Angel  / Aunt Kristi
Dear Angel Baby, I went to the cemetary today. I felt such peace knowing you and Michael are together in Heaven. I don't know why I felt so different today but I did. I never stop thinking about you and wondering why you had to leave so soon. I may never know this side of Heaven and when I get there with you it won't matter anymore. Just wanted you to know that I love you and miss you so very much. Always know how very much I love you, My Forever Angel.                   June 28, 2008 Close

Hey Lil Man ~ This is for you ~  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom /. Joe Rhodes's Wife (friend to Aunt Kristi connected by angels )

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Happy Birthday My Precious Angel  / Nanny And Pa
Well My Precious Angel  you would have been 10 months old today. Happy Birthday my sweet boy. Nobody will ever know just how much I miss you and love you. It just seems that with every passing day it gets harder instead of easier without you here. I love you My Precious Angel and I miss you so much. I think about you all the time, I can never get you off my mind. I would just love to hold you once more, kiss your sweet face and and hug you close to me. I love you so much. It seems like I can't say it enough My Precious Angel. You are missed so much. Pa said to say that he loves and misses you . You were his Little Buddy and will forever be in our hearts. June 15, 2008 Close

My Forever Angel  / Aunt Kristi

Well, Baby Boy, they set your headstone today, on your 8 month "angelversay". It is so beautiful, as is the foot marker. Amber done such a great job of picking out what is just exactly perfect as a memorial to you. It has been a hard day. When I got the phone call from your nanny saying they were setting your stone, I was excited and I was dreading it all at the same time. I know it sounds crazy but it is almost like it is so final now. I know you have been gone 8 months today but it seems like for the past 8 months we have been busy doing something for you all the time. The last thing we had to do was get your headstone set and now it is done. Even though that part is done, we will never ever ever let your memory die. Something in our hearts as strong as your love can never leave us. You are in my thoughts almost all the time. I will never forget the way your felt in my arms. I love you so much and miss you more. You will always and forever live in my heart, My Forever Angel.      June 13, 2008

 

 

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To My Sweet Angel in Heaven  / Amber

Sweet Angel,

I was hoping things would be easier by now, but they aren't. I think I have come to accept that I won't be able to hold you again until Heaven, but it still kills me that I can't do it now and I don't know how long it will be until I'll see your sweet face again. There are times that it still doesn't seem real to me, even [almost] 8 months later.

We went to pick out a stone for you and it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I hope I made the right decisions. I put my favorite picture of you on there because everyone will be able to see your sweet face. There is a look of love in your eyes and I want everyone to see what a special little boy you are to everyone.

You know, there are so many babies in the world that are unwanted and that is a horrible thing. I cannot fathom why someone wouldn't want such a precious gift from God. I hope that a loving family finds them to take care and love them the way they deserve, but I still cannot understand why such a precious baby that we wanted so much [and still do, always will] was taken from us. You would have had nothing but a family full of love and devotion for you. To spoil you, give you everything you wanted. I hear people say "I wonder what Ashton would have done. What he would have been like. What his future would have been," but I know that this was God's plan for you. He knew what was going to happen before you were even born, though I don't think I'll ever understand. I just hope that everything really does happen for a reason.

I do know that you were and still are such an inspiration to so many people. They look at your short life and see how much of an impact you made in other's lives. You had so much love when you left this world and you still have just as much, if not more, although I don't know if we could love you anymore than we already do. It's just that now, we have to share that unconditional love with the grief of missing you.

So many of my friends have babies that are close to your age and it is so hard to see them because it makes me wish so much that you were here for me to hold, play with, and see your smiling face.

I haven't written very many things on the web site, but I hope people do not think it's because I never visit. I visit it almost every day. Sometimes, it's just so hard to think of words to write that can express how much I miss you. I read what others have written to and about you and it amazes me that those who never had the chance to meet you still care about you and our family in the way they do. In return, I hope those families will be blessed and know how much their thoughts and prayers are appreciated.

Though I miss you so much, I have gotten to where I can look at your pictures and not cry. Instead, I remember the times I got to spend with you. Yes, I miss those times and wish so badly that I still had you here with me to share more memories, but I am thankful that I was given the chance to have you in my life. I haven't watched the videos yet. Everytime I start, I can't finish because it's just too hard. I thought I could and started watching the video of you and me at Old Nanny's house. It broke my heart all over again, but there are tons of pictures and keepsakes to keep your memory alive, though it could never vanish. Everytime I walk by your cabinet, I look at your pacifier. It's hard to see because I know it's yours and it makes my heart ache, but it brings joy at the same time because I think of the times we spent together. You came and went so quickly, but you will be in our lives forever.

Today is your Mommy and big sister Emily's birthday. Please watch over them, be with them, send your love, and know that they miss you. That goes for everyone. We need you to be with us all. I know there are lots of people in Heaven to hold you until we get there. We all love you so much and are sending lots of hugs and kisses your way. I love you, Sweet Angel.

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my little man  / Barbie Freeman (friends of amber and aunt Kristi )

Dear littleman,

I have been thinking alot about you here lately, I have not been by your page in so long it seems but I want you to know that I'm always thinking of you. You know my little girl just turned 8 months old today and I was thinking of you and her and how good of buddies you two would be.

Oh my it don't seem like its been almost 8 months since you have been gone.

Oh little man I look at your page and just cry like a baby. I know Aunt Kristi, Nanny and Amber miss you so.

Amber told me the other day that they picked out your stone for your grave and how pretty it is. You would love it i know.

Ashton, you will never know how much you are missed NEVER..

I so wish you were here and able to grow up With Alyssa, but I know you and Eli are watching over her for me everyday.

Well little man I love and miss you, please keep your hand down on Amber she misses you so.

love you lots barbie :-{

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Could not help but think of Sweet Ashton  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom (friend to Aunt Kristi )

You were taken on angel's wings

As you sweetly and quietly slept

And returned to heaven before we knew

That you had even left

Our hearts are heavy and sorrowed

That our time with you was so brief

For you were our gift of heaven's light

That is now replaced with grief

But not so much that we won't be grateful

For every second you were here

You filled our hearts with so much joy

Treasured memories we'll hold forever dear

And though we weren't blessed to see you grow up

We were blessed to see you smile

And hold you lovingly in our arms ..."

Ashton Spicer

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for Kristi  / Rhonda Rhodes
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Heaven's Two Special Angels  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom (friend to Aunt Kristi )

Ashton Spicer and Caleigh Kirk

Two of the most precious sweetest little Angels of Heaven.  We were allowed to hold and love these Angels but for a moment.   The moment was filled with much delight, much joy, so much power of beauty that their touch has forever left their tiny footprints in our hearts. Never to be forgotten, Never to be just a memory ~ Their very essence still lives within our heart bringing Ashton and Caliegh into every day that we wake up to ~

~ Eternally before the LORD ~

 

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My Forever Angel  / Aunt Kristi
Dear Baby Boy, Today you are 9 months old. If you were still with us I can only imagine how much fun you would be, the little things that would amuse you. Would you have hair? How many teeth would you have? Would you be walking? What words could you say? I guess you would call me Sisti like Emily and Bodie did. How spoiled would Amber have you?? You are so missed. You are on my mind the time. It is just not fair. Always know how much Aunt Kristi loves you, My Forever Angel.      May 15, 2008

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My Precious Angel Boy  / Nanny
My Dear Ashton, It has been 7 months since you left us and I miss you more now than I ever have before. I sit and look at your pictures and sometimes I think that it is not fair but then I know in my heart that it was what God wanted or it would never have happened. It is still hard being here without you my precious baby boy. You were my first grandson and I was so proud of you. You are my shining star and you will always be My Precious Angel. Ashton I love and miss you so very much. I would just love to hold you one more time and kiss your sweet face, but I know that is not going to happen here on earth but it will one day in Heaven I am sure. Hugs and kisses to you, My Precious Angel Boy.  May 13, 2008 Close

My Forever Angel  / Aunt Kristi
Dear Baby Boy, You have been on my mind all day today just as you are every day. I spent the whole day with Old Nanny & Old Pa. We talked about you alot. We miss you so much. I went to a funeral yesterday, the first one since yours. It was real hard but I actually done okay until they sang Amazing Grace, which is one of the songs they sang at your service. It brought back so many memories of the worst time of my life. I know people say that with time it gets easier but you never forget. Well, it has not gotten any easier. Granted, I can talk about you now without crying, but baby boy the ache of wanting to hold you in my arms again and kiss your little cheeks does not get any easier. I miss you so much. Always know how very much I love you, My Forever Angel.                  May 10,  2008 Close

Your love for lil Ashton is as undying as a Mom's  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom (friend to Aunt Kristi )

For you Aunt Kristie for loving Ashton with all of your heart and making sure His Life is remembered and honored

There is but one Ashton

There is but one Aunt Kristi ~ You touched lil Ashton's life and now your life has been touched by lil Ashton's

One of a kind love

Two perfect Angels Purposed by God

Planned by God  to meet on earth

Happy Mother's Day

Aunt Kristie

 

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I am so sorry I missed your birthday Ashton  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom (friend to Aunt Kristi )

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My Forever Angel  / Aunt Kristi

Dear Sweet Angel, I just had to say that I love you so much. For a while now, I have been collecting some things knowing that someday I would make you a memorial cabinet. Well, I went Saturday and picked out the cabinet and it now sits in the living room. The first thing I do in the morning and the first thing I do when I get home from work is turn the light on in it. I am still working on it but it is so beautiful. I love to just sit and look at it.

I know that I will probably never understand the reason you are no longer with us but some days it is so much harder than others. Some days I am so bitter and I know that is not the way I should be but baby boy it just is not fair. I try not to let the bitterness get the best of me because I still know that God is still in control, he makes no mistakes and everything he does is for a reason. I try not to ask "Why" but I guess that is just human nature.

I am sending you a big big hug and lots of kisses. I miss you. I love you, My Forever Angel.      

 April 22, 2008

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My Forever Angel  / Aunt Kristi
Well baby boy, here it is April 15, 2008. You are 8 months old today. As I looked back through Bradley and Amber's baby books tonight, I tried to realize all the things you would be doing and saying, how many teeth you would have, what your favorite things to do would be, how your eyes would light up when you saw your favorite people, how you would probably be pulling Jackson's little tail and he would bark at you. You may have been walking by now. I can really see you smile when your Old Nanny would do her little forehead knocker thing to you and sing her little songs to you, that she has sang to all the other grandchildren and great-grandchildren. You would be saying some little words, playing pat-a-cake, peek-a-boo and no doubt be spoiled rotten. You are missed so much. Happy Birthday in Heaven. I can't wait to see you, hold you in my arms again and give you lots of make-up hugs and kisses. I Love You, My Forever Angel.   April 15, 2008

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Happy Birthday  / Nanny
Happy Birthday Ashton. You would have been 8 months old today. I love and miss you so very much. I would just love to hold you one more time and kiss you precious face.  I would give anything to be able  to look into your eyes and tell you that I love you and that I could just eat you up. I really miss you My Precious Angel..Happy Birthday Angel.   April 15, 2008 Close